From my jail memoir, Hard Time, that Raving Arizona is based on:
The commotion was in the shower area, about fifteen feet
behind me. Skinheads were attacking a naked figure on the floor. Inmates
stopped what they were doing, gravitated toward the shower area, and formed a
sinister audience. I’m on the phone the day room, speaking to my girlfriend,
Claudia.
“What is it?” Claudia asked.
“Looks like…er…some kind of disturbance,” I said into the
telephone.
“What? What’s wrong? You alright?” she said, her voice
starting to crack.
“Sure…er…I’m fine. It doesn’t involve me,” I said,
distracted by the violence and proximity of the growing crowd.
The naked man raised his head and I saw it was another new
prisoner called David. There was a plea for help in his eyes as they briefly
met mine – a look that froze me against the wall.
“Er…I might need to get off the phone here soon.”
“Die you sick chomo!” Rob, the biggest of the skinheads
yelled, dropping his heel on David’s temple. Chomo is American prison slang for
child molestor.
“Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhh…”
“What’s going on? Are you OK?” Claudia asked, her voice
hitting some high notes.
The skinheads vied for stomping room. David arched his back
in agony.
“Yes. I’m fine,” I said, struggling not to relay my fear.
“It just gets crazy in these places, that’s all.”
The blows silenced David. Blood streamed from his nose.
“I have to go now. I love you,” I said, not wanting to worry
her any further.
“Love you too. Every time I go to my mom’s house, I take
your sweaty T-shirt and Floppy.” Floppy was a Build-A-Bear creation that played
my voice saying, “Happy Valentine’s Day. I love you, Bungle Bee.”
One of the skinheads jumped up and down on David. I thought
I heard his ribs snap.
“Bye, love.” I hung up.
The spectators had adopted the safety-in-numbers survival
strategy of the wildebeest. None of them dared venture from the herd.
Mesmerised by the violence, they watched from a safe distance. Gripped by the
same instinct, I joined the back of the herd.
As if they’d exhausted their supply of aggression on David,
the skinheads stopped the beating and marched away in unison. David was a
whimpering heaving mound of flesh, blood pooling around his head.
What kind of world am
I in? I thought. This stuff really
happens. How will I survive?
Just when the violence seemed to be over, a rhinoceros of a
man with spider webs tattooed on his thick neck approached the skinheads. “How
come we can still hear the chomo?”
“We smashed the chomo good, dawg,” Rob said.
“Not good enough.” The man went to the shower with the
casual gait of someone going to the shop to buy a bottle of milk, grabbed
David’s neck, and started slamming David’s skull against the concrete as if he
were trying to break open a coconut. Crack-crack-crack…
I was revolted but compelled to watch. The big man had
increased the stakes, and I didn’t doubt the code of these people included
killing anyone who interfered or flagged down a guard. Even walking away would
be a show of disapproval, an invitation to be attacked next. I was terrified.
David’s body convulsed. His eyes closed. Then stillness.
Silence. He remained on the floor until a guard walked the pod ten minutes
later.
“Everybody, lockdown! Lockdown right now!” the guard yelled.
Shouting at the guard, the inmates returned to their cells,
slamming their doors behind them. Guards rushed into the day room. Pressing
myself to the cell door, I watched them remove David on a stretcher. There was
fluid other than blood leaking from his head. A yellowish fluid.
Raving Arizona is based on my memoirs Party Time and Hard Time
Click here to read Chapter 1 of Party Time with Amazon links.
Click here to read Chapter 1 of Hard Time with Amazon links.
Click here to read Chapter 1 of Prison Time
Shaun Attwood
Click here to read Chapter 1 of Party Time with Amazon links.
Click here to read Chapter 1 of Hard Time with Amazon links.
Click here to read Chapter 1 of Prison Time
Shaun Attwood
Just saw your story on locked up abroad here in Singapore - I don't know how u coped all those years, and memories such as this one will no doubt haunt you forever. Such strength to survive! (From one blogger to another)
ReplyDeletewhat did you do before to go to jail ?
ReplyDeleteSELLING DRUGS !!!!!!!!!!! is it enough for you ?
thanks so much Aussie Pete
ReplyDeleteJust watched the programme,shock,horror.but as you said,if you could turn back the clock it would all be so different,how many of us wished that,really easy to criticise" anonymous"but no-one knows what's around the corner,you've done your time and now your trying to teach young people about your experiences,hopefully you'll make a difference to some,so good luck for the future
ReplyDeleteJust seen the program about your time in jail, it truly seemed like a living hell
ReplyDeletethanks so much guys
ReplyDeleteGood on the skinheads sorry ant got time for pedos
ReplyDeleteShaun just saw your programme in the UK. I don't know how you did it. I know someone who works in the court system in Arizona and she said that the sheriff is evil. I didn't believe her until I saw the programme. Glad u managed to get things changed.
ReplyDeleteSaw banged up last night, what an eye opener - all of it! Bet your folks glad to get you back to widnes. Best wishes
ReplyDeleteyes Mark, 62 people died in that jail over 5 years
ReplyDeleteAwesome!
ReplyDeleteDam
ReplyDeleteThanks for sharing your experience, but if this is how US prisons are handled... imagine serving a sentence in a 3rd world country.
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