05 Apr 08

From T-Bone (Letter 3)

T-Bone - A deeply-spiritual and massively-built African-American. A prison gladiator with more stab wounds than Julius Caesar. A good man to have on your side.

3-26-08
4:01 PM

Hey,

What’s going on over there in merry old England?

Me, I am doing great. I am counting down now because next year I am out of here, and hopefully I’ll be able to visit you over there across the pond, or north in the B.C., you’d love Vancouver, Jon!

Before I go on, it’s good to hear that you have a good lady to hang with. Also it’s cool to know that you are doing a lot of writing and spending time with your loved ones.

Hey man, slow down on the pints or any other spirits, because you are too strong for that junk, meaning it will lead to other things eventually. It might start with weird sex, and then drugs once you become used to that feeling. That’s why we watch who we hang with and what they’re into. I’m not sorry for talking to you like that because I wouldn’t be a friend if I didn’t tell you to be careful with the pubs and all the coke that is everywhere nowadays!

Check this out Jon, when I was running around in my coke days, or like the brothers call it “yayo,” I ran into all kinds of people who did all kinds of things and some of the money they made went places to hurt people. Do you her me Brother!!!? No matter how cool it may seem it will only lead to the police, prison or death! That’s real man, and you need to keep yourself away from anyone that is associated with drugs in any way because it is wrong and dangerous – period.

Hey, I’ve completed all the requirements to receive my certificate from Pima Community College. Here are my grades and man does it feel good because like you I spend my time doing something that is positive and good. I could very easily take things from the lesser guys here or people in general but that will make me like them. I’ve risen above the bull-___! You know there are always going to be ups and downs in life but it is our choices that make or break us, and you know that within minutes of leaving this place I can get anything, from drugs to ______! But I won’t ever do that unless I have to save a life. There’s an old saying of the Tuaregs that started hundreds of years ago in North Africa in the desert, and it goes something like this: “There is nothing worth one day of freedom.” They said that because someone was trying to take their land. It happened again in the 60s when there was oil found all over the region. They simply told them that no matter what they offered them or did to them they would never give up their land because there is nothing worth one day of freedom. Remember that when the temptation to do dirt or drugs comes over you!

Years ago I was on a yard doing hard time having all the fellas look up to me, thinking I was something because I had the dope sack. I had anything I wanted, money, women to come see me, talking to them on the phone. I had the cops scared of me and I thought I was cool, you know, one bad ass dude. I found out that it was only my flunkies putting that stuff in my head for the dope. Anyways I was walking around during count, getting blow jobs from a couple of ladies in uniform, working out to impress, and I got away with all that because I had the dope sack! Now, Jon, you must realise that you are a good man and your potential is unlimited. So do not allow yourself to be lowered to the level of a dope!

It’s all a matter of choice and the wrong choices got you in prison my friend! But then again we wouldn’t have met if you hadn’t of come? I personally believe that we would of met regardless of circumstances. Remember this as well, we are judged by the company that we keep.

Brother I hope you are doing OK and that you realize I do care about you because you’re my friend. Say hello to your parents and spend time with them because Brother, only strength can do what they’ve done. Don’t forget to write back! Say Hi to Posh Bird, and

BE CAREFUL BROTHER

Peace to you and yours

Strength and Honor

Each one Teach one!

Yours

T-Bone


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7 comments:

JL said...

I have concerns about men who come out of stressful circumstances and read way, way too much into romantic relationships.

Most men who emerge from these circumstances are desperate for understanding, and it's just (as was shouted at me one late, late night, years ago) TOO MUCH!

The writing is useful, but it's not enough. Some bunch of people on the other end of a cable is not the same as a woman in your bed. Or sitting on your face. Or sucking you. It's just not the same.

Man, I don't know.

You're hitting a lot of hard points for me, and I think you're doing well; but don't, don't, jump the gun over women.

Don't fucking do it, man.

You gotta be cool, you gotta realize other people have not had your experiences. And on the one hand you got some woman who will wet her panties over some 'hard case', and another who will look for the other side.

But you ain't gonna find a woman who wants both.

Again, I don't know.

Anyway, I was outside today on the first beautiful day we've had here, in the sun and a T-shirt, and thinking of the guys who can't rake their lawns, and are trapped in concrete cells, and thought of you.

Cheers.

~:*:*:Pixie:*:*:~ said...

I really like T-Bone. He seems very wise, very kind.

joannie said...

I think freedom is just being ok with being in your own skin, no matter where you are. But it's good to dream. Congratulations on getting the college credits!

Love Letters From Prison said...

Thanks for inspiring me again!

dirtos said...

What is it with T Bone? The man's obsessed with drugs, that's all he keeps going on about,
"Stay away from drugs Shaun, don't do drugs etc"
I reckon he's projecting on to you. The man's clearly got a few unresolved issues.

Anonymous said...

I hope that T Bone will continue to use the creative side of him and keep positive. He should be OK when he has is freedom!

Anonymous said...

A true friend indeed. -Jose in San Diego.